YOU'RE MY TEQUILA ROSE

 

3yrs ago God sent me an angel but for a short span of time He took it away from me because that angel belongs to someone else. And I'm so sick of jumping through hoops to keep my Tequila Rose in a bubble. That moment, letting her go was the hardest thing I have ever done. All I'm dreaming of is that someday, we're gonna drop that little boat of hers in the water and disappear forever. But sometimes God doesn't give you what you want, not because you don't deserve it, but because you deserve better. It kills me because we can't be together. Nevertheless, I am happy because I know those feelings were REAL.

'I wanted to be the one who would be there when you needed someone to talk to. I wanted to be the one who will comfort your soul when the world is too much to handle. I wanted to be strong for you when everything else seems impossible. I wanted to love you freely. I wanted you to be mine someday, never realizing that I was destroying the both of us. I was so selfish. I'm sorry.'

  

Things have changed after that night had gone horribly wrong. It was a nightmare for both of us which left me wishing I could rewind the time and have it back how it used to be. My heart shattered into pieces. Words were left unsaid and it ruined everything. Gossips made our story so complicated. I lost myself for a quite while but I tried to find my way back. The rain reminds me of the tears you shed but I had no idea how to make the tears stop even for just a day. Sorry is the best word I could give. I failed you. I never meant to ruin the friendship that meant the world to me. I learned from this experience. I'm sorry my Tequila Rose.

I am so thankful that finally one of my dreams came true, after so long we're finally good. Back to square one. I won't let get it destroyed again. I promise. All the things that I told you about how I felt were true. 'Salbahe ako pero hindi ako sinungaling =))' Even the FS thing, my deepest secret was finally revealed. It's been 3yrs already. 3 long years. And the f... *to be continued. =D

You'll always be my Tequila Rose. 

I missed you.